I Will Not Fly Alone

Recently I had felt life weighing upon me. Each day is filled with problems, challenges, roadblocks. Each turn is faced with new issues, new developments.

How can anyone face all these? How can anyone bear all these?!!

My above lamentation is generally frowned upon in society today – East and West. Any admission of lament is a equivalent to conceding defeat, an act of failure. Everyone wants to be a hero in his own terms. Everyone wants to say, “this success we have is because of ME”. It is clear that humans flock after successful people (just check out the sales of autobiographies of famous or important people – e.g. Barack Obama, Warren Buffet). And just as clearly, few (or maybe no one) wants to be associated with anyone who had conceded failure.

But really, is declaring our inability or our need for help something to be frowned upon? It struck me as not.

Over the years I had come face to face with some of life’s most difficult problems. Many of these are very tense and dramatic situations. These are the kind of problems that just explodes in my face. I had no direct influence and no control whatsoever. I have to admit that in face of these situations, I had raised laments like above.

Like many I asked God the rhetorical three-lettered question: “WHY?” But soon, like Job (see Book of Job in the Bible) I stopped asking and started praying and started waiting (patiently for the solution). I found out that storms will blow over, even the worse will past, the dark night will eventually break forth into daylight. But of journey through the dark nights, I concluded that most of life is beyond man’s control. For except for whatever I eat, drink, wear, and where I decide to go, most of life’s circumstances are dependent on the decisions of others – that I have absolutely no control over. One can argue that we can influence, manipulate or force a certain outcome, but really… how can we be sure? Each person can only be influenced as much as he wants to be influenced. One party may indeed decide against another’s influence.

So when I think upon these really difficult moments as the one I am in now, I realise that my only consolations are that my God is sovereign over all, and that He is a God that loves me with an eternal and everlasting love. These truths are the anchors through the storms of my life. These are the beacons as I meet and navigate through the most threatening turbulences.

心再坚强也不要独自飞翔、有你爱的地方就是天堂

Through it all, I have journeyed till this day. And regardless of what the world might say, I am convinced that in my life – I will not fly alone. I’d rather be labelled as a ‘failure’ in the eyes of the world than to face life’s snares without the cover of God’s love. Heaven is where his love resides. His love in me will be my heaven as I brace life’s toughest storms.